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180°
03:48
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Too many nights spent in the college union spreading myself thin,
Trying to build a life, or something.
Too many lights left on after midnight, where do I begin?
When everything they say makes me feel like water,
Running on the roof, down into the gutter,
Falling in a drain, they make me feel like rain.
I can’t take this out in a healthy manner.
I don’t deserve the praise or accolades.
(I won’t let this rain define me)
But she will, that’s okay ‘cause I can take it.
I can’t keep holding on, but I’ll pretend.
(Don’t think that I’ve frozen over)
I’ll fake it ’til I make it out alive.
All of my time split between work and sleeping, I’m worried that too soon.
They’ll figure out I’m a fraud, and leave me.
Leave me alone! One day I’ll find courage, one day I’ll be a man.
‘Cause everything she says makes me feel like water,
Filling up her cup, though she wants something stronger,
But she’s trying to abstain, she’s only drinking rain.
I can’t take this out in a healthy manner.
I don’t deserve the praise or accolades.
(I won’t let this rain define me)
But she will, that’s okay ‘cause I can take it.
I can’t keep holding on, but I’ll pretend.
(Don’t think that I’ve frozen over)
I’ll fake it ’til I make it out alive.
And now the waters drowning them, it overflowed the drains.
And her cup is filled with tears, and I am not ashamed.
Finally I am doubting them, I don’t feel any pain.
I’m conquering each of my fears, I know exactly who I am.
I can’t take this out in a healthy manner.
I don’t deserve the praise or accolades.
But she will, but that’s okay, that’s okay.
I can’t keep holding on, I’m holding on.
I’ll fake it ’til I make it out alive.
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2. |
A Poem Misread
03:04
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The only things I'm good at are pretending I'm in love and breaking hearts.
I like to think that I'm honest although maybe I'm just lying 'cause it's so hard.
Suddenly I'm falling, Winter's door is calling.
Even when you’re here, I'm alone.
So I started walking, couldn't stop from knocking.
But she lives my life on her own.
Waking up and wishing, she’s the one I’m missing.
Even though I’m last on her mind.
Lies and medication, slipping through depression.
One day everything will be fine.
I’ll be fine.
The only things I'm good at are pretending I'm in love and breaking hearts.
I like to think that I'm honest although maybe I'm just lying 'cause it's so hard.
It's so hard to breathe when she’s staring back at me.
Hard to breathe when she’s staring through me with those eyes.
Those beautiful piercing eyes.
Someone come and save me, she thinks I'm going crazy.
I know that it's all in her head.
She's in love with love and I'm in love with nothing.
Maybe she's a poem I misread?
She makes it seem so easy to fall in love and leave me.
I’m tired of this game of pretend.
Everybody’s sleeping, I’m still fucking weeping.
I wish that this whole thing would just end.
This will end.
The only things I'm good at are pretending I'm in love and breaking hearts.
I like to think that I'm honest although maybe I'm just lying 'cause it's so hard.
It's so hard to breathe when she’s staring back at me.
Hard to breathe when she’s staring through me with those eyes.
Those beautiful piercing eyes.
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3. |
Tonight
02:35
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When I wake up, I want to see you.
Keep my eyes closed, and I'm hoping
That you'll be there when they open.
But I know the problem with hoping…
It just passes the time. No amount of hoping will make you mine.
Are you thinking of me?
And are you feeling lonely?
Cause I'm thinking of you. And I've been dreaming of you.
Now I want to tell you. Looks like I've fallen for you now.
I've been waiting, but I know better.
Lying awake without an answer.
How do I tell you that I need you?
Or look in your eyes when you tell me,
“You’re just wasting your time. Nothing you can say will change my mind."
Are you thinking of me?
And are you feeling lonely?
Cause I'm thinking of you. And I've been dreaming of you.
Now I want to tell you. Looks like I've fallen for you now
And I know it isn't right, but I want to show you why, I can't let this go.
I need your hands to hold. Just hold my hands tonight. Only for tonight.
When I wake up, I don’t see you.
Kept my eyes closed, and was hoping
That you’d be there when they open.
But I know, I know
You’re not thinking of me. I’m the only lonely
One who’s thinking of you, always dreaming of you.
I hope he loves you. Looks like I’ve fallen to the ground.
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4. |
Pretend 2
03:27
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I used to think that I would never get over you.
Turns out I'm wrong 'cause I don't care who you're talking to.
I've spent the last seven months thinking I'm doing okay.
For the most part I am and that's all I can say.
I don't know if I'm just lonely, or maybe it's who I am.
It's like everyone sees right through me and no one gives a damn.
I don't want to say I miss you 'cause I'm pretty sure I don't.
I miss the feeling that you gave me, the feeling I'm not alone.
I miss the safety when I wake up in the middle of the night.
I miss holding on to someone and they say "Erik, it's alright."
I wish I knew what it's like to feel alive.
I know it's one thing to be, and one more to pretend.
Truth is I'm still a nightmare, and that's all I've ever been.
'Cause it's the same old shit, just a different day.
And I’ll keep telling myself that I’ll end up okay. Okay!
I used to think that I would never get over you.
Maybe not yet, but it's something I'm getting through.
You know I didn't want to but I had to say goodbye.
I just couldn't fucking take it, living my life trapped in a lie.
I really wish I'd wake up and change my life for good.
I know I'll never make it but I really wish I could.
I wish I knew what it's like to feel alive.
I know it's one thing to be, and one more to pretend.
Truth is I'm still a nightmare, and that's all I've ever been.
'Cause it's the same old shit, just a different day.
And I’ll keep telling myself that I’ll end up okay. Okay!
Can you put me back together even though you broke my heart?
Can't I just pretend you love me? 'Cause I can't stand our time apart.
I know it's one thing to be, and one more to pretend.
Truth is I'm still a nightmare, and that's all I've ever been.
'Cause it's the same old shit, just a different day.
And I’ll keep telling myself that I’ll end up okay.
I used to think that I would never get over you.
I guess I was right 'cause we're talking like we used to.
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A Secret Scenario Auburn, New York
A Secret Scenario was formed in 2010 over spring break by members Brandon Berry and Erik Lupien. The two began to write and record a series of 12 songs. Wanting to perform the music they had written live, Berry and Lupien recruited close friends James Fennessy and Jacob Smolak to play bass and drums respectively. The four continue to practice, write, and record new songs every day. ... more
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